Tuesday, March 13, 2012

60 Degrees In March

So, I have a lot to say.
No surprise.
Only, I don't know how to say it.

"I'm just really terrible at making decisions."
"Well yeah...trust me, I know."

"I don't want to stay in Utah for the summer, I want to go home.  I still have friends at home.  I'm a home body, I love being home."
"Well why don't you just go to school in North Carolina?"
Have you ever listened to anything I had to say?

I love school in Utah, I love the people I live with and around.
Is it bad that I love home so much?
Is it bad that I want to go home every chance I get?
No, I don't think it is.
I want to be home for Lyndsis homecoming, and Brads baptism, Jesses play.
I want to see those parts, I want to be close.
But I want the atmosphere of school in Utah.
If anyone can figure that out (with out it costing a bajillion dollars) let a girl know.

And there are also secret combinations, even as in times of old, according to the combinations of the devil, for he is the founder of all these things; yea, the founder of murder, and works of darkness; yea, and he leadeth them by the neck with a flaxen cord, until he bindeth them with his strong cords forever. 
--2 Nephi 26:22

"A flaxen core can be an obligation we feel to have people in our life, even if they're not good for you.  It then changes from a flaxen cord to a strong cord, we feel required to stay with them."

This was part of Coralee's lesson on Sunday. The quote above is something my friend Mike brought up during class. We do things that at the time don't sound like a big deal, we're around people we shouldn't be, but we don't think its going to go anywhere.  Those are tiny flaxen cords that we get caught up in and before we know it we're so tied down that we can't get out by ourselves.  Hello High School. I choose to come to Utah to get away from the very flaxen cords that I felt like were holding me down. Pause. I'm not saying I didn't have great friends in high school, I did.  I had people who stuck up for me, and people I could trust.  But I needed more. That is why i'm here.

I applied for another job today.
I did my laundry.
I cleaned my apartment.
I wore short sleeves, sandals, and capri pants today.
I feel good.

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Good Things Come In Elevens.

So usually i'm really opposed to these types of things, and I feel like it brings me back to my myspace days where all I did was take surveys for hours.  But lets face it, lately I have a lot of trouble trying to think of things to say on here.  I signed on to blogger and was thrilled to see pretty much everyone I follow had posted something, I finally had something to read.  One in particular, Siovhan.  Shes friends with Lyndsi, and maybe i've never met her but I just read everything shes ever says.  She had this on hers and the whole time I was reading it I had the thought, "I sure hope she tags me at the end so I can do it too." And she did! I was so happy! So here we go.


There are six rules.
1. Post these rules.
2. Post 11 random things about yourself.
3. Answer the questions set for you in the original post (i.e., Siovhans for me).
4. Create 11 new questions and tag people to answer them.
5. Go to their blog and tell them you've tagged them.
6. No saying, "If you are reading this, you're tagged."



11 Facts About Me
1. I  always tell people I wish I could be a mermaid.  I mean this one hundred percent. I love the ocean, I love not wearing real clothes, and I would never have to shower.  All of these things are my favorite things. My life would be great, except I don't enjoy eating fish.
2. I'm terrible at eating soup, really.  Especially vegetable soup, no matter how hungry I am I can take two bites and then decide i'm no longer hungry. I just don't enjoy it.
3. I eat things in circles.  Bojangles biscuits, cookies, Big Macs, if its a circle i'm going to eat whole outside first before I even think of eating the middle.
4. When I was younger I had a cat named Ginger who either died, or we gave her away.  One day Corey and my Dad told me that Gingerale was made out of the left overs from our cat, I believed them.  I still have trouble drinking gingerale to this day.
5. I am an organized pack rat.  I keep EVERYTHING. I have this thought in my head that one day I might need a t-shirt with a bunch of holes in it, so why would I throw it away now? Also, I have all the notes my friends have ever given me from middle school to high school - they're saved in a shoe box in my closet.
6. I hate wearing shoes.  But the only time I enjoy being barefoot is if i'm outside.  Otherwise, I just wish I could wear socks anywhere.
7. Socks are my all time favorite thing to buy. Seriously. Whenever I decide I deserve a reward, its usually a new pack of neon, decorated socks. I'm obsessed.  
8. I'd rather have my nail polish chipped than  fully done, it really doesn't bother me. I think chipped nail polish says, "I'm willing to be a girl, but i'm okay with getting dirty too"
9. I am the laziest athlete you will ever meet.  I don't really know if I can still call myself an athlete, since i'm not playing a sport anymore.  Outside of practices, I never worked on myself to get better, or be in better shape, I never wanted too.  I'm naturally fast and I just thought that was all I would ever need.  I envy people who have the drive to work even harder to be better at their sport, or the drive to just be able to get back into shape.
10. I love love love reality TV.  The Challege, The Hills, Dance Moms, The Real World. Seriously, I love them. 
11. I own a pair of sweatpants that I never plan on getting rid of.  They're my grey track sweatpants from my freshman year (they're Mens mediums, they still swallow me). These pants have been through everything with me.  Breakups, Movies, Stuffing my face, Make ups, confrontations, everything.  They're pretty much my best friend.  I've worn holes in the heels where I walk on them, and my pockets are barely hanging on, but I can't ever bring myself to get rid of them.



Siovhans Questions For Me:
1. What's your favorite way to spend any "me time" you have? 

I really love writing in my journal.  I have things written down everywhere.  Random papers, my actual journal, and countless documents on my computer.  But since I got netflix I find myself spending the majority of my time on there.  I love that mess.  I started watching Greys Anatomy again from the very beginning, I'm addicted all over again.
2. If you could live any place in the world for six months, where would it be? 

As cliche as the answer is, I really think I would live on the beach.  Probably the Outer Banks, its my favorite place in the whole world.  But I wouldn't want to be by myself, I would want my whole family together.
3. What's the best advice your mom and/or dad ever gave you? 

Before any test, game, or meet my dad always tells me, "Maim and Kill Lacey".  So be legit, and take people down.  I was good at doing this kinda thing during soccer, track was a different story.  My mom always tells me to do what will make me happy, and what I think is right.  But that no matter what I choose she will always be my number one fan.  She shows this too me everyday.
4. What's your favorite book? Why? 

I always say Tuck Everlasting.  I just have the best memories of this book.  We read it as a class in the 4th grade and I remember it being one of the first stories I really fell in love with.  The idea of living forever sounds awesome until you realize what that actually means for you and your family.  And the people that have the ability to live for forever don't want it because you see too many terrible things and you have to keep moving your life around.  
5. Do you want a pet? What's your ideal pet? 

I have always really wanted an Elephant of Giraffe.  But thats not idea for any kind of household unless I was too live in a zoo.  I really loved my cat, Cutie.  I loved my dog too but she was never the cuddly fetch playing kind, more like she would run away if we left the door open.  But I would love a cuddly dog.  Standard Answer: Cat or Dog.
6. If you could buy any one item regardless of cost, what would it be? 

The cooking staff of Bojangles and Cookout.  Then I could have my favorite meals when ever I wanted.
7. What do you hope your legacy will be? 

I really hope my children will think of me the way I think of my parents and my grandparents. I want to be the one who was always willing to help and be nice to the ones who didn't have anyone else.  I want to be remembered by my students the way I remember Mr. Chappell and Mrs. Davis.  I want to open their eyes and make them love English and literature.  Also, being remembered for having good legs, or you know, being the first person to convince Cookout and Bojangles to open a restaurant in Provo wouldn't be bad either.
8. Who's your hero?

I just really really really love all the women in my family. They're all strong in different ways, they can make a meal out of nothing, and they always take care of everyone.
9. How would you classify your personal style? 

Lazy.  I can dress up look like a real girl, but I don't really enjoy doing that all the time.  I love t-shirts, and my sweatpants, and wearing shoes that aren't heels.  Also, i'm usually in a sweatshirt, and my hair usually ends up in a ponytail by the end of the day.  I'm never really up to date on the cool thing to wear, and if I do know about it I usually can't afford it. 
10. What do you consider your best personality trait? 

I would like to think i'm really laid back.  I don't need to be entertained when i'm with people, I don't need expensive dinners, or big gestures.  I just really love watching movies, and eating.
11. Do you have a favorite sports team? 

I wish I could say I really watched sports so this could happen.  Uhmmm, go Carolina!


Questions for the friends I tag:
1. What is your biggest pet peeve?
2. If you could be written into any movie or book, which one would be and why?
3. Whats your favorite part about yourself?
4. If you could stay a certain age for forever, what age would it be?
5. If a soundtrack was to be made of your life, what are 3 songs that would be included?
6. Whats your favorite meal?
7. What makes you the most nervous? 
8. Where is your favorite place to be?
9. Do you have any hidden talents? 
10. What is your first thought when you wake up?
11. Wheres Waldo?

Friends I Tag: