This time last year I was sending a good friend I had made back home to California for the summer.
I was saying goodbye to my very first roommates.
I had my first real customer service job.
I had just finished my first year of college.
All I wanted to do was fly home to a boy that I was in love with.
I couldn't imagine staying in Utah for an entire summer.
This year that same friend will leave for California.
I am still saying goodbye to my roommates.
I'm picking up my third job for the summer.
I have finished my second year of college.
There is no boy that I am in love with.
I can't imagine leaving Utah for an entire summer.
Its crazy how things can change in just one year.
This will be my first summer in Utah where my heart is actually with me.
I have never been so ready.
Since i've moved away from home things that I knew about myself have become much more obvious to me.
I am ALWAYS willing to give people 3, 4, 5, chances.
I have a really hard time believe that people make bad choices on purpose, especially when it effects me in the end.
This leads me to letting them back in my life, continuously.
Every relationship teaches you something, and although I may have stayed in my relationships longer than I should have, I don't regret any of them.
My sophomore year of high school I really really liked this boy and when things didn't work out between us I literally didn't think I would ever be okay again.
The same thing happened my junior year, and my senior year, and again my freshman year of college.
The thing is, I will be okay. Always.
I never understood girls who couldn't walk away from their boyfriends who were complete jerks, of boyfriends who had cheated on them.
I couldn't understand until I was one of those girls last year, and again recently.
When you put your entire self into a relationship its hard to pull it all back out and start over.
But its not impossible.
Refine: Verb
1. Improve (something) by making small changes, in particular make (an idea,theory, or method) more subtle and accurate.
2. To make (a substance) pure by taking out dirt, waste substances.
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